I'm feeling girlie and maybe a little young and hopeful and giddy about the return of sun. So, excuse me for a moment while I take myself not too seriously and just ramble about clothes!
I've always enjoyed fashion. As a young girl, I remember having quite particular taste. Certain items stand out in my mind: When I was 8 years old, I remember loving my red high-top chucks and bright yellow jeans. I've always loved overalls and had various pairs growing up. Then there are the vivid and fond memories of my railroad stripe bell bottoms, a lady bug vest, white daisy dukes with the botanical type butterfly print, peasant dresses and combat boots.... Oh yes, getting dressed was always a fun form of self expression. This continued on into womanhood. About a decade or so ago, I fell hard for vintage-inspired dresses and skirts. Stopping and browsing through Anthropologie after a tiring day of teaching was music to my soul. I just loved meandering through, touching everything, fondling fabrics, enjoying the scents of their fancy candles burning. Once or twice a year, I even splurged on a pretty dress or two from there.
And then I became a mother.
At which point, lack of time and budget collided to create the perfect storm of what is bound to be remembered as an utterly styless era of my time. When I became a mother, my love of clothing took the backseat at least when it came to dressing me. Bea has had her share of adorable items during this time and honestly, it felt like a dream for the chance to dress my little girl. Little girls don't stay little for long and I always knew my time dressing her was limited. So I let myself have a good bit of fun. I have no regrets!! Yet over the past five years my clothes have become outdated, threadbare, stretched, faded, and just sloppy.
Well, over the past year or so, I've been slowly trying to change this by choosing items that fit my lifestyle. I want my wardrobe to be durable and comfortable. It needs to be washable. I can't be bothered with dry clean items. I also still want my updated wardrobe to be pretty and femine. I love natural fibers most and will rarely budge into the synthetic realm. I'm not a trendy person. I want to choose items that will look lovely today and well into the future. I have no interest in keeping up with fashion forecast. In short, I am looking for well-cut items that will help to make me feel beautiful and like myself -- not just another dishelved mom! I want to pay attention to me again! I know what I like and if I commit to not settling for cheap Target t-shirts or the equivalent and instead invest in fewer classic pieces, I can create a simple, consise wardrobe that will serve me whether I'm roadtripping across the west, tending to the garden, tidying up the home, or going out to dinner with the family.
My little on-going fashion dialogue that I've had with myself this past year finally reached a new level of clarity this past weekend when after reading a fun chapter on clothing in Marie Kondo's The Life Changing Magic of Tidying Up. Understand, I do not have a large wardrobe. I have never needed or wanted a walk-in closet. Even so, after reading her chapter on clothing, I was inspired to declutter my closet even more! I went through my stash of t-shirts, tank tops, tights, and socks and within minutes had two garbage bags collected of things that did not spark joy. That's a lot of stuff that I had no business holding on to. The next day I dropped the two bags off at the thrift store and I have had no regrets!
I can start fresh, slowly building a wardrobe that is representative and purposeful to my lifestyle. Also, my joy is sparked as I fall asleep in a bedroom that is sparse and not overflowing with unloved clothes stuffed away behind doors and drawers and baskets.
One of my all time favorite quotes is "Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you've imagined," by Henry Thoreau.
Sometimes, we have to plod away in that direction by cleaning out our socks and t-shirt drawers.
Here's to finding my way back to me (and therefore my dreams) in 2015.